Krisscream,
I know what it's like to be depressed. I know what it's like to have no friends. I know what it's like to have your family hate you. I know what it's like to cry every night wondering when it will end.
You probably do not remember me all that well, but I remember you.
Just look at your wall. All of these people living at different places around the world with their own lives and their own problems, yet they took time out of their day, the day they can never get back again, to go on your wall and tell you to stop what you're doing. They care for you.
You may think that nobody loves you, you may think that there's no point in living if it will just be endless sorrow. I know this feeling.
But there are people, like us that posted on your wall, that care for you and do not want you to take your life. Somewhere on this earth, there is the love of your life, the person that you will marry and create a life with. Somewhere on this earth, there is that person that will love you unconditionally for who you are. And you will find them, whether you try or not.
But if you take your life, you will not find them.
I believe that God put each of us on this earth for a reason. I know that's a widely used term but it's one that I like to live by. Out of all of the people that could have been created, out of all of the souls that could've been created, your soul was the one that was chosen.
Life is a miracle and nightmare. There will be the worst possible times, and the best times that you will cherish until you're gray and old. Always remember that when a storm passes, there is a rainbow.
There's also just the generality of looking at life in a more positive way. Try not to focus on the bad things. Replay the heartwarming memories from when you were young, the lovely memories of laughing and playing. It doesn't need to be with someone, you just need to be happy.
You can be happy. You can be whatever you want. You can do whatever you want. Until you are comfortable and used to these dark times, you won't reach that happiness. Stay light.
Life is both a gift and a punishment, and you can never get any second back again once it's gone. Cherish everything, because out of everyone, you were the person that was placed on this place that we call earth.
Do not take your life. Even if you think people don't love you now, these people on your wall and I care about you. People you don't even expect would love you, do. And there are people that will love you in the future.
Hi Kriss... Ive had depression problems in the past myself... and just know that you CAN get through it. How I got through it was always thinking something good might happen over and over. It did and i was happy again. Remember that.
Hey Kriss!! Even though I don't know you, I would like to say that you seem like a great person. I really don't want you to do this... every life is precious and filled with precious memories. We are made of stars that shine and they shine for a reason. And now, I'm going to go on a long rant.
I don't like the phrase "A cry for help." I just don't like how it sounds. When somebody says to me, "I'm thinking about suicide, I have a plan; I just need a reason not to do it," the last thing I see is helplessness.
I think: your depression has been beating you up for years. It's called you ugly, and stupid, and pathetic, and a failure, for so long that you've forgotten that it's wrong. You don't see any good in yourself, and you don't have any hope.
But still, here you are; you've come over to my, banged on my door, and said "HEY! Staying alive is REALLY HARD right now! Just give me something to fight with! I don't care if it's a stick! Give me a stick and I can stay alive!"
How is that helpless? I think that's incredible. You're like a marine: trapped for years behind enemy lines, your gun has been taken away, you're out of ammo, you're malnourished, and you've probably caught some kind of jungle virus that's making you hallucinate giant spiders.
And you're still just going "GIVE ME A STICK, I'M NOT DYING OUT HERE."
"A cry for help" makes it sound like I'm supposed to take pity on you, but you don't need my pity. This isn't pathetic. This is the will to survive. This is how humans lived long enough to become the dominant species.
With NO hope, running on NOTHING, you're ready to cut through a hundred miles of hostile jungle with nothing but a stick, if that's what it takes to get to safety.
All I'm doing is handing out sticks.
You're the one staying alive.
Kriss... To come back to Enjin and MCBall after not being here for a while and see you like this is upsetting to say the least. But it doesn't have to be this way man, there is always light at the end of the tunnel. You aren't alone Kriss you know there are loads of people here for you. You know where I am if you need me bud.
Hey Kriss, its been a while since we talked. How are you? I remember when we played together and remember that drawing you made for me? I still use it a lot!
Im really depressed lately to be honest i dpnt know what to do with my life. So i just want an end of my past and upcoming mistakes. Man i can't believe you still use my drawing its kinda old. And you deserve a new and better one.
I know whats it like to be depressed. It really sucks all positivity out of you..
You know, mistakes are there to learn from. Even if life is constant misery, something will reward you for your effort to keep going. There were times i tried to leave this world as well.. than i remembered my friends and found hope again. I still dont really know where im going, but one goal for me is to meet my online friends irl.
Hej Kriss!
Det är aldrig nödvändigt att döda sig själv. Du skadrar bara inte dig själv, utan alla andra omkring dig som bryr sig om dig! Hoppas att allt löser sig, och vill bara säga att vi alla finns här för dig! Hoppas du gör det rätta beslutet, och hoppas att vi kan höras snart på discord igen
kriss ohmygod, please don't. After I heard this I was shocked and just couldn't imagine how such a positive person would ever do these horrible things to himself. I remember all the times you were there for me (and probably for many others) and you were THE KRISS. Everybody knows you and loves you on this server
My life has turned so bad after mcball i mean it was kinda bad back when i were on the server too. Bur now im just drowned. I dont feel any happyness. But i really miss you katt ^-^ thank you so much it means alot to me that you care so much about me.
Hey Kriss, long time no see buddy. Don't know if you still remember me but I've been in your shoes. There are still days where it's dark around me and I feel that I'm not loved. I know what it's like, but you must remain calm. Take a deep breath and think about your loved ones, and think of how they would feel without you. You as a person impact many peoples' lives, and without you there to keep them safe, they are sad and lonely. There are other options, Kriss. As a concerned friend I write to you today, and I promise you that you will be loved, just talk to me once.
Dude seriously don't do it. I remember when i first got on build team and you were there and i thought you were the coolest. You were such a great builder and an awesome dude. Don't let others try to take your life away from you.
10 So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Jeremiah 29:11
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
John 10:10
10 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.