Hi, I was reading your post and noticed that when you scroll down, my irl is leaked.

what last post?
psshhhh

This will be my last post on this wall unless I have some announcement or care to try and bond with people again. As I talk to those I love less and less and listen to things that I hate more and more, it seems as if it's more amusing to watch my life from a screen then to live it. With a mostly supportive family, good school, food on my plate, money in my pocket, a handful of friends I care for and two friends I trust more then the world itself - I just don't think my brain is wired for happiness. Lurking out the disappointments in expectations that are nearly absent yet false hope only brings more sadness when it shouldn't. I don't like talking about my thoughts, emotions, and other such but it comes to a point where you just need to announce it and at the same time hide it from those who beg for details. I am an overly emotional, hypocritical, introverted, insecure, rude, and over all horrible friend to most since / and I can barely keep a good friend for more then a few years, I tend to look down on myself in dismay as I wish to ask if I should question why. Talk to Bernardo because he knows this first hand, talk to Smol Angell™ o^▽ ^o and she can explain how we have separated in her time of need. I tend to push others away or vise versa and can only secretly guess when it will happen to the next friend I make or how badly this will turn out and friends are only the start. I have had crushes before, I think all of us have whether it was short or not but most people don't find actual love until they truly find that person or someone that fits that person they wish to be with or as close as possible to the point of almost no difference. I can say for one that I am only fifteen but I have only truly liked one person with a bunch of minor thoughts of others. Whether my opinion on them is more attracted physically or emotionally their opinion is never the same and finding someone who is more then a friend can often take many sorrows and buckets of ice cream but these can and will bring you down and I can simply say it will take more then a hearbreak or disappointment to make you have second thoughts on everything you know or wan to know. The reason for your existance, why everything happens, why there is sadness and why is there greif. I know people who would say if I just disappeared they would miss me but honestly my family would cry and move on, my friends would have some jokes to say which I would wish they would and keep me in close in mind but far from memory, those who would actually care for my disappearance wouldn't even mind to much since only one person I can think of cares to come online almost every night to talk to me for hours on end about anything I want to talk about and play anything I want to play and will honestly compliment me anytime I need and give me a hug if they could. This person I will sadly won't or will not any time soon get to meet thought they are the one person who can bring me from a horrible mood to a bright day within minutes, they will probably never get to see me in the flesh and only as pixels on a screen. It sucks, I know and all of us online have friends we hold dear that we haven't ever seen face to face but until others argue that they have a great enviorment. Though I can to say from what I have, a "Lovely and Fortunate Environment" to those not understanding, unwilling, or unfortunate enough to have to deal with my sorrows I bare upon you in our conversations directly or indirectly or in my messages I may send towards one or many, I just don't feel that way. I have found happiness in what I can see but cannot obtain when I socialize with the object or person I hold most dear to me, I can never grasp that final feeling of what we all need as humans. We all deserve love, joy, memories, sorrows, and disappointment whether you believe it or not because we all are simply coincidences whether there is a higher power or not. Whether we have a purpose or not...

I hope no one actually is worried for me. My choices are my choices and to make them is nothing you can do. No one can change that and as dependent as I am on my closest friends, I make the final choice and right now I my choice is to not tell you what happens next. ~ Farewell.

Because I honestly don't want to have to retype my own opinions.

nub

rude not even using my banner </3

I'm your dad now.

oi ;^; we need to talk again

"My apologize"
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