i havent talked to you since last year!!
CHARLEE WE NEED TO PLAY TOS SOME TIME. HMU HMU HMU
Damn, that must hurt! Please follow these people on Instagram, I was on their page for like half an hour laughing.
Van Gogh is, to me, probably one of the most inspirational people in history. His paintings just give me good vibes, with all the swirls of colors and emotions mixed together on a canvas. Even though you can not actually see the emotions on the canvas, you can take them all in by using your sight and the power of your mind. It's also phenomenal to think about how he felt when he painted this. He painted so well, I wonder how he felt about his accomplishments.
It's so depressing how he wanted to die so badly. He shot himself and died before he even turned 40. Several months before he passed away, Van Gogh experienced some of his worst episodes (he suffered from bipolar disorder). They were described as some of his saddest episodes. For a couple of months, he couldn't bear to write. He continued to create art. Even though he gave up in the end, Van Gogh still did what he loved his whole life. He drew and painted and created some of the most beautiful works of art.
If any of you feel depressed in any way, talk to whoever you trust, you can even message me here on Enjin. You are amazing, please love yourself, don't let others tell you who you are based on their opinions. Have a good day, guys. (:
Hide 'N' Seek has gradually been made out to be one of the creepiest children's games..... Every New Year's Eve, I play Hide 'N' Seek with my friends in the pitch black...in my basement. It's actually pretty fun. Wow, this post just sounded really creepy. Well, goodnight, everyone. (:
I FOUND WHERE THEY HID ALL THE MANNEQUINS IN REI WTH?!?!?!!
I wanted to come on for just a moment to wish a happy Christmas to all who celebrate!
I'm going to be inactive on Enjin for about a week due to the holidays. Also, I've had a personal issue going on for a while. Basically, I had the worst episode of my entire life that has really scarred my mentality. It lasted about a month and a half. In this episode, I acted hyper, overly obsessed with certain things, and psychotic. I even had hallucinations, I used to think I kept seeing this little black fox following me. I kept putting up my middle fingers, saying the "f" word every ten seconds, and I called my dog and others retards. Also, I forgot to eat dinner a lot so I ate at 8:30PM, and I went to sleep at about two, three, or four most nights. I yelled at people and went out of control. These are things I'd never do in reality.
If you don't know what an episode is, it's something that happens when you have bipolar disorder, a mental illness that causes you to have extreme mood swings, depression, and manias. An episode is when you go into an extreme state of some kind of emotion. It can be depressive or manic/psycho-manic (psycho-manic is less severe). My family and others have recommended that I recover from this.
Before you say, "Doesn't your medication work?" let me just say something. I've tried to refuse medication, and I've had extremely mixed feelings about it due to rapid cycling. I was really afraid of the side effects that the medication has. It can involve seizures, more depression, and even some rare, deadly skin disease. I have extreme anxiety about this most of the time.
I have quite big mood swings, so if I sound different on Teamspeak or something, please don't critique me on it or say I sound emotionless or like I drank however many cups of caffeine. I've already had enough of that crap from teachers, kids at school, my parent's friends, my friends, and people in public.
Sometimes I think that my whole life has to revolve around this. I'm told this isn't my real personality. It's hard to distinguish BP from real life. Sometimes I just wonder what real life is.
I'm not explaining this for attention and pity. I am still a person, and we're not all the same. I've just wanted to open up myself to you guys, since you are my good friends (I know I repeat that a lot). Even though it may seem weird to talk about your own mental "illness" (if you actually have one), we need to make this a normal thing to talk about. As I said, we're still people.
Anyway, have a great Christmas if you celebrate, and happy birthday to those who may have their birthday coming up...
(Sorry if I made a typo while writing this.)
