Shared publicly - Jan 26, 20
Many people knew me by many different names.
Kazionik being the one in this case.
But they don't know my story from between when they met me and now.
I didn't say anything to anyone when I left Emenbee. Not even to those I considered close. It just wasn't something I was ready to talk about. I don't know if people remember the girl named Kazionik who enjoyed singing and creating new things but...I'm ready to tell the story of who she was now.
Kazionik was a girl who had lost her dreams. She wanted to become a Veterinarian or Zoologist at first but her stomach wouldn't allow it. She tried out a few other dreams after but none of them could work, in fact one of them was what led to discovering the incurable issues to begin with. She went to school for Cosmetology, then again for Programming and Game design. Then one day she stumbled across Emenbee. At this point she didn't know what was going on with her body, all she knew is she got weaker and weaker with each blood test and exam. Instead of focusing on that weakness, she enjoyed her time with as many people as she possibly could. She spent many hours building towns, trying out different things, and overall making friends. She even applied to Moderate as she loved to help people.
She did become JrMod and then progressed to Mod, but a few months later is when things started to tumble apart.
At this point, she had gone through so many tests and heartbreak of not knowing that she was giving up.
She had fun when she was around. Especially the days when the staff would get together and play games with each other, bonding over the funniness and interests. She felt happy to be around people and feel their warmth, but things started to take their toll.
Kazionik started logging on less and less. No one really ever knew why. Not even those who were close to her. But today is the day I tell you why.
Kaz disappeared from going into a Coma.
At this point in her story, she had lost her best friend to murder and her own brother had gotten physically abusive. She had spent 4 years of blood being taken and medications failing. She had been drained of blood and just wanted to sleep. She didn't know it would be 3 weeks til she woke up again, she just knew she was tired.
Kaz didn't know even what inside of her made her find a reason to fight again, but she did wake up. And shortly after she was finally diagnosed.
Kazionik has a rare strand of Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome as well as is Highly Anemic. The unfortunate thing being that the Anemia cannot be treated due to the PCOS strand. When they tried treating it, her body would reject it. She spent the past few years gone as it took this long to figure out how to live with it and function normally.
But It's not all bad.
She found a new dream that she pursues every single day.
And I write now to say, I am Kazionik. And I have found my reason to keep fighting.
I do apologize for disappearing to those who may or may not even remember me. I wish I could have been here more for everyone. Especially those who I still have high memories and think of even to this day.
I remember the fun I had with
Mod_masta 
AussieSnouters 
Mr_Zx 
Dragonette_11 and more. I remember the laughs and happiness everyone felt in those moments...
And I'm happy to know they are all still in this world, hopefully spreading the happiness they brought to me to others as well.
My name was Kazionik, and this was my story.
Kazionik being the one in this case.
But they don't know my story from between when they met me and now.
I didn't say anything to anyone when I left Emenbee. Not even to those I considered close. It just wasn't something I was ready to talk about. I don't know if people remember the girl named Kazionik who enjoyed singing and creating new things but...I'm ready to tell the story of who she was now.
Kazionik was a girl who had lost her dreams. She wanted to become a Veterinarian or Zoologist at first but her stomach wouldn't allow it. She tried out a few other dreams after but none of them could work, in fact one of them was what led to discovering the incurable issues to begin with. She went to school for Cosmetology, then again for Programming and Game design. Then one day she stumbled across Emenbee. At this point she didn't know what was going on with her body, all she knew is she got weaker and weaker with each blood test and exam. Instead of focusing on that weakness, she enjoyed her time with as many people as she possibly could. She spent many hours building towns, trying out different things, and overall making friends. She even applied to Moderate as she loved to help people.
She did become JrMod and then progressed to Mod, but a few months later is when things started to tumble apart.
At this point, she had gone through so many tests and heartbreak of not knowing that she was giving up.
She had fun when she was around. Especially the days when the staff would get together and play games with each other, bonding over the funniness and interests. She felt happy to be around people and feel their warmth, but things started to take their toll.
Kazionik started logging on less and less. No one really ever knew why. Not even those who were close to her. But today is the day I tell you why.
Kaz disappeared from going into a Coma.
At this point in her story, she had lost her best friend to murder and her own brother had gotten physically abusive. She had spent 4 years of blood being taken and medications failing. She had been drained of blood and just wanted to sleep. She didn't know it would be 3 weeks til she woke up again, she just knew she was tired.
Kaz didn't know even what inside of her made her find a reason to fight again, but she did wake up. And shortly after she was finally diagnosed.
Kazionik has a rare strand of Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome as well as is Highly Anemic. The unfortunate thing being that the Anemia cannot be treated due to the PCOS strand. When they tried treating it, her body would reject it. She spent the past few years gone as it took this long to figure out how to live with it and function normally.
But It's not all bad.
She found a new dream that she pursues every single day.
And I write now to say, I am Kazionik. And I have found my reason to keep fighting.
I do apologize for disappearing to those who may or may not even remember me. I wish I could have been here more for everyone. Especially those who I still have high memories and think of even to this day.
I remember the fun I had with
Mod_masta AussieSnouters Mr_Zx Dragonette_11 and more. I remember the laughs and happiness everyone felt in those moments...And I'm happy to know they are all still in this world, hopefully spreading the happiness they brought to me to others as well.
My name was Kazionik, and this was my story.
