@ dufunny this has nothing to do with people moving on, i was banned from the server over a very stupid reason. i have been unbanned but pasq still is holding onto her anger and hate, how am i supposed to feel comfortable when there is a knife constantly dangling over my head? she wont talk to me about it, she dosent want to resolve this conflict like an adult, and she refuses to apologise to me. thats why i cant come back, thats why i have lost everything.
no agony, i have nothing. i have been betrayed. i have lost everything. i cant join the server anymore, people who i thought were my friends wont talk to me anymore. like i have been wiped off the face of the earth. and i kind of want to, i beg for death, and it never comes. i tried to take my life, didnt work. recently got back from the hospital.
all of my friends are gone, i have nothing left. i had alot of fun on the server. but thats all gone now. people who i thought were my friends have either left me or stabbed me in the back. i am dead inside.
i know it sounds cleche, but you know how the song goes: "i find it kind of funny, i find it kind of sad, these dreams where im dying were the best i ever had"
